The Work I Thought I Was Meant to Do
I’m starting to realize something I didn’t expect.
I don’t think I’m meant to do this the way I thought I would.
When I first stepped into Ayurveda, it felt pretty clear what that path looked like—build a practice, take clients, offer consultations, create programs. That’s what made sense, and honestly, that’s what I assumed I was working toward.
It was a logical next step after years of building something successful, structured, and outwardly “complete.” I thought I was simply shifting industries, not rethinking the way I relate to work altogether.
But over time, something started to feel off. Not wrong exactly, just… incomplete.
There have been moments where I’ve sat in front of my work and thought, I don’t want to package this. I don’t want to sell it like this. I don’t even know if this is the role I’m meant to play.
For a while, I took that as a sign that things weren’t working. Like maybe I just wasn’t gaining traction, or I hadn’t figured out the right way to position it yet.
But I’m starting to see it differently now.
Maybe it’s not that it isn’t working. Maybe it’s that I’m trying to fit into a model that was never really mine to begin with.
Because the moments that feel the most natural aren’t when I’m “offering a service.” It’s when I’m writing, observing, and making sense of what I’m seeing—in people, in leadership, in how we live and operate day to day.
That’s the part that doesn’t feel forced.
And I’m beginning to trust that more.
Not as a strategy. Not as a pivot. Just as a willingness to follow what feels true, even if it doesn’t yet have a clear outcome attached to it.
We spend so much time trying to make things make sense—to ourselves, to others, to the structures we’ve learned to operate within.
But sometimes the shift doesn’t come from figuring it out.
It comes from being honest about what no longer fits.
And letting that be enough, at least for now.
This feels like the beginning of a different kind of work. I’m curious to see where it leads.
